his fingers find hers with an ease that accompanied YEARS of marriage, the intimate spread of familiarity that flowed between them — there was no replacing what existed between the two of them, and he had no want to replace it, never had ; even while he was with maria, his heart still laid with eliza, as if his heart and body were entirely different entities, one already owned and captured while the other was free to roam. he could not place his agony, his r e g r e t, into WORDS.
"i would hate to have you succumb to the cold, my dear.“ his voice is a choked whisper, still partly in awe that elizabeth was granting him this kindness, was allowing him to spend a night with her ; his office had grown into a lonely hell filled with demons of his own making. “love and forgiveness are two different things.”
her heart was still as kind as ever, and she knew that nothing was going to change that. some people would say how EASILY he was forgiven was a weakness in her, but that wasn’t the case. although her heart was still hurting, she could not bare to be without this man. she wasn’t staying with him because she was FORCED, she was staying with him because her heart was always going to be with his. ❛ i have to admit, your warmth is one of the MANY things that i have missed about you. ❜
the memories of her pressing her cold feet against his own stayed, and she smiled to herself, leading the way for the two to get into bed together. ❛ although i am still in love with you, the pain in my heart will always linger. i love you, alexander, but words do not describe how long it will take me to fully forgive you. ❜ in a weeks time, their sons blood will be on their HANDS and they will move. that is when she will forgive him, when she realizes that the things she loves are too precious, and she cannot let them go. ❛ lay with ME. ❜
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LAW OF THE LAND.
welcome to my blog! i'm sure that you'll find that everything is not in order, and you know what, that is alright. right? i'm trying my hardest as a female with anxiety issues, so just let me be yeah? my name is sydney, i got by she/her pronouns, and boy do i love broadway.
i am selective with who i rp with, and i'm really sorry if i don't follow you back. it does not mean that i don't like your blog, and you are amazing, i already know that. i either don't see our writing meshes well together, or i just don't see our characters interacting. i do have exclusives, and i do have mains. i however, refuse to have exclusives for alexander, as there are too many that i rp with. here are a few mains and exclusives:
i do make some ooc post on the daily, more than i do reply to starters. lately i have a lot on my mind, and i like to speak, and then try to debate on whether or not i post it, because i think i'm funny. i am a slow repiler, so please just bare with me.
please, please, do not be afraid to do ships with me. i love ships, and i love everything about that. but, i will do things with chemistry, and please understand that i don't really like doing planned ships.
about graphics, all were either made by me or for me. my theme background was made by @patriotread and my icons were made by my friends. the only icons i make are the ones that are used for modern or teen eliza. please do not steal any of these, but i doubt you will, all of my musical icons have my url on them.
there are a lot of basic rules that i feel like people should know, and if you have any other questions, please message me. i am not a scary person, i scare myself sometimes but i try not to scare other people. i have no hidden messages or anything like that, so please do not be afraid to rp with me.
verses
BEFORE THE WAR.
BEFORE DEATH.
AFTERMATH.
MODERN/AU.
SCHUYLER SISTERS.
this will take place before eliza has ever even met alexander. she is just bff's with her wonderful sisters, and nothing will stop her from being happy with them.
HELPLESS.
this is when she is writing to alexander/before they have their first born. this will be used also while alexander is off at war, and before she tells him that she is pregnant.
THAT WOULD BE ENOUGH.
in this verse, she is pregnant with philip, and it is everything after that and before the reynolds pamphlet. alexander can be cheating during this time, but eliza, obviously, has no idea about it. they also have more kids throughout this time, so it'll mainly be when everyone is little and happy.
BURN.
obviously, this is reynolds time, and it's not a happy time. this is the verse where eliza does get heartbroken, and where she is having the most difficult time forgiving her husband. she loves him dearly, but she is also trying to decide whether or not she can go on. before she could, however, philip dies in her arms, and they move uptown.
MATTER OF TIME.
this is after alexander's death, and eliza has lost almost everyone in her life. she goes on to open an orphange, she interviews so many people that worked with alexander; she does it all to carry on his legacy. it starts with hamilton, and ends with hamilton.
TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW.
this is the baby teen verse omg yes. it will mainly be in modern times, and the face-claim for this will be arden cho. i felt as if she fit best for this, and if that makes you angry or something, please come and tell me, but girlie i couldn't find a better fc so if you have one.
HALF DRESSED A MESS.
this will be the college verse that i do have planned. i haven't been able to use this as much as i would like, but i have stuff in mind. eliza is studying to be a nurse, and she is also engaged to alexander, since i still think they would have gotten married at a young age either way.
SUMMER IN THE CITY.
a happy time, where this is just modern eliza. i have debated on what to do about her eight kids, considering i really can't just erase them. in this verse, it's mainly just that eliza constantly gets pregnant, and by their fifth kid, alexander and eliza just gave up. it's not taking place in college, or anything like that. also, in this verse, i don't think that he would have cheated on her, considering there are a lot of things that differ from it.
I THOUGHT YOU WERE IN HUFFLEPUFF.
her father was a wizard while her mother was a muggle, making her a half-blood. at eleven she got accepted into hogwarts and was off, trying to make everything seem alright for her. she was put into gryffindor, but everyone she met thought that she was in hufflepuff, but that wasn't the case at all. her wand is a 13 inch with laurel wood and the core is made of unicorn hair.
basic information
FULL NAME: elizabeth schuyler/hamilton.
NICKNAME: eliza or bestsey.
AGE: in her twenties, verse dependent.
BIRTH DATE: august 9th, 1757.
GENDER: cis female.
RELIGION: catholic.
SPOKEN LANGUAGE: english and some french.
CURRENT LIVING CONDITIONS: middle class, but was born rich, but clashed with her marriage to alexander hamilton.
OCCUPATION: housewife/co-founder and deputy director of an orphanage ( historical ). nurse ( modern ).
relationships
PARENTS: catherine van rensselaer ( mother ) and philip schuyler ( father ).
SIBLINGS: angelica and peggy ( sisters ), and philip ( brother ). there are more siblings, but they are half and too many.
SIGNIFICANT OTHER: alexander hamilton.
CHILDREN: philip, john, eliza, james, alexander jr., william, and phil.
physical traits
EYE COLOUR: brown.
HAIR COLOUR: brown.
HEIGHT: 5'5.
BODY BUILD: the very small frame, thin and delicate
TATTOOS + PIERCINGS: none, except for the piercing of the ears
