HELPLESS. ⁽ ᵃᵖ ⁾

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^{act 1 // act 2.}
❝ dear old friend, how goes the war? ❞
❝ i wish i were there, with death at my heels. ❞
❝ it should have been me. ❞
❝ how i envy you and your happiness. ❞
❝ i will kill him one day. ❞
❝ he is not a great man, none of us are great men. we are just caught in the wave of history. ❞
❝ what am i to do if i love him and the other one too? ❞
❝ i see nothing but the candle in the mirror. no visions of the future, so lost and alone. ❞
❝ i am in deep despair at the misunderstanding there is between us. ❞
❝ i beg you to believe that i cannot help loving you. ❞
❝ i shall never be happy again! ❞
❝ i must love you or die. ❞
❝ how was it i noticed nothing? how could it go so far? ❞
❝ i’m glad, i can’t hide it any longer! ❞
❝ oh, you don’t understand anything! don’t talk nonsense, just listen! ❞
❝ it seems to me i’ve loved him a hundred years. it seems to me that i’ve never loved anyone before. ❞
❝ if you tell, you are my enemy! ❞
❝ i won’t succumb to your tender tone. ❞
❝ i’m afraid for you! afraid you are going to your ruin! ❞
❝ leave me alone, yes, leave me alone! i hate you, i hate you, you’re my enemy forever! ❞
❝ forget everything and forgive me. ❞
❝ i know you are capable of anything. i know you so well, my friend. ❞
❝ i will stand in the dark for you. ❞
❝ tonight i go away on an adventure. you’ll not be seeing me for some time. ❞
❝ now wait! you’d better just give it up now, why don’t you? while there’s still time! ❞
❝ this is no time for your stupid jokes! ❞
❝ and my handsome lips mutter something tender to myself. ❞
❝ well, comrades, we’ve had our fun. lived, laughed, and loved. ❞
❝ kiss me one last time. ❞
❝ you will not enter my house, scoundrel! ❞
❝ don’t touch me, let me be! what is it to me? i shall die! ❞
❝ why did you interfere? who are you to tell me anything? ❞
❝ go away, go away! you all hate and despise me! ❞
❝ there’s ruin at the door! ❞
❝ nonsense, nonsense, nothing has happened! everything is fine! ❞
❝ at this moment, you are more repulsive to me than ever. ❞
❝ i don’t know what deprives me of the pleasure of smashing your head in with this! ❞
❝ i shan’t be violent, don’t be afraid. ❞
❝ after all you must understand that besides your pleasure, there is such a thing as other people, and their happiness and peace. and that you are ruining a whole life for the sake of amusing yourself! ❞
❝ well i don’t know about that, eh? i don’t know that! and i don’t want to! ❞
❝ is it satisfaction you want? ❞
❝ well, how are you? still getting stouter? ❞
❝ there’s a new wrinkle on your forehead, old friend. ❞
❝ there’s a war going on. ❞
❝ you told me once a fallen woman should be forgiven. ❞
❝ but i didn’t say that i could forgive — i can’t. ❞
❝ that would be very noble — but i can’t be that man. ❞
❝ if you wish to be my friend, never speak of that again. ❞
❝ tell him to — tell him to forgive me. ❞
❝ but still i’m tormented by the wrongs i’ve done him. ❞
❝ did you love that bad man? ❞
❝ consider me your friend. and if you ever need help, or simply to open your heart to someone, not now but when your mind is clear, think of me. ❞
❝ don’t speak to me like that, i am not worth it! ❞
❝ if i were not myself, but the brightest, handsomest, best man on earth, i would get down on my knees this minute and ask you for your hand. and for your love. ❞
❝ mankind seems so pitiful, so poor, compared to that softened, grateful last glance she gave me through her tears. ❞
❝ the comet is said to portent untold horrors and the end of the world. ❞
❝ my softened and uplifted soul and my newly melted heart, now blossoming into a new life. ❞

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& ◆ ░▌⇢ ʷʳⁱᵗᵗᵉⁿ ˡᵉᵗᵗᵉʳˢ ( ask memes. )

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LAW OF THE LAND.

welcome to my blog! i'm sure that you'll find that everything is not in order, and you know what, that is alright. right? i'm trying my hardest as a female with anxiety issues, so just let me be yeah? my name is sydney, i got by she/her pronouns, and boy do i love broadway.

i am selective with who i rp with, and i'm really sorry if i don't follow you back. it does not mean that i don't like your blog, and you are amazing, i already know that. i either don't see our writing meshes well together, or i just don't see our characters interacting. i do have exclusives, and i do have mains. i however, refuse to have exclusives for alexander, as there are too many that i rp with. here are a few mains and exclusives:

MAINS:

alexander hamilton | patriotread & weehawken

martha washington | diispositions

thomas jefferson | dominusmontis

EXCLUSIVES:

jason dean | blackduster

dewey finn | totheband

i do make some ooc post on the daily, more than i do reply to starters. lately i have a lot on my mind, and i like to speak, and then try to debate on whether or not i post it, because i think i'm funny. i am a slow repiler, so please just bare with me.

please, please, do not be afraid to do ships with me. i love ships, and i love everything about that. but, i will do things with chemistry, and please understand that i don't really like doing planned ships.

about graphics, all were either made by me or for me. my theme background was made by @patriotread and my icons were made by my friends. the only icons i make are the ones that are used for modern or teen eliza. please do not steal any of these, but i doubt you will, all of my musical icons have my url on them.

there are a lot of basic rules that i feel like people should know, and if you have any other questions, please message me. i am not a scary person, i scare myself sometimes but i try not to scare other people. i have no hidden messages or anything like that, so please do not be afraid to rp with me.

SCHUYLER SISTERS.
this will take place before eliza has ever even met alexander. she is just bff's with her wonderful sisters, and nothing will stop her from being happy with them.

HELPLESS.
this is when she is writing to alexander/before they have their first born. this will be used also while alexander is off at war, and before she tells him that she is pregnant.
THAT WOULD BE ENOUGH.
in this verse, she is pregnant with philip, and it is everything after that and before the reynolds pamphlet. alexander can be cheating during this time, but eliza, obviously, has no idea about it. they also have more kids throughout this time, so it'll mainly be when everyone is little and happy.

BURN.
obviously, this is reynolds time, and it's not a happy time. this is the verse where eliza does get heartbroken, and where she is having the most difficult time forgiving her husband. she loves him dearly, but she is also trying to decide whether or not she can go on. before she could, however, philip dies in her arms, and they move uptown.
MATTER OF TIME.
this is after alexander's death, and eliza has lost almost everyone in her life. she goes on to open an orphange, she interviews so many people that worked with alexander; she does it all to carry on his legacy. it starts with hamilton, and ends with hamilton.
TO BE ALIVE RIGHT NOW.
this is the baby teen verse omg yes. it will mainly be in modern times, and the face-claim for this will be arden cho. i felt as if she fit best for this, and if that makes you angry or something, please come and tell me, but girlie i couldn't find a better fc so if you have one.

HALF DRESSED A MESS.
this will be the college verse that i do have planned. i haven't been able to use this as much as i would like, but i have stuff in mind. eliza is studying to be a nurse, and she is also engaged to alexander, since i still think they would have gotten married at a young age either way.

SUMMER IN THE CITY.
a happy time, where this is just modern eliza. i have debated on what to do about her eight kids, considering i really can't just erase them. in this verse, it's mainly just that eliza constantly gets pregnant, and by their fifth kid, alexander and eliza just gave up. it's not taking place in college, or anything like that. also, in this verse, i don't think that he would have cheated on her, considering there are a lot of things that differ from it.

I THOUGHT YOU WERE IN HUFFLEPUFF.
her father was a wizard while her mother was a muggle, making her a half-blood. at eleven she got accepted into hogwarts and was off, trying to make everything seem alright for her. she was put into gryffindor, but everyone she met thought that she was in hufflepuff, but that wasn't the case at all. her wand is a 13 inch with laurel wood and the core is made of unicorn hair.

basic information

FULL NAME: elizabeth schuyler/hamilton.
NICKNAME: eliza or bestsey.
AGE: in her twenties, verse dependent.
BIRTH DATE: august 9th, 1757.
GENDER: cis female.
RELIGION: catholic.
SPOKEN LANGUAGE: english and some french.
CURRENT LIVING CONDITIONS: middle class, but was born rich, but clashed with her marriage to alexander hamilton.
OCCUPATION: housewife/co-founder and deputy director of an orphanage ( historical ). nurse ( modern ).

relationships

PARENTS: catherine van rensselaer ( mother ) and philip schuyler ( father ).
SIBLINGS: angelica and peggy ( sisters ), and philip ( brother ). there are more siblings, but they are half and too many.
SIGNIFICANT OTHER: alexander hamilton.
CHILDREN: philip, john, eliza, james, alexander jr., william, and phil.

physical traits

EYE COLOUR: brown.
HAIR COLOUR: brown.
HEIGHT: 5'5.
BODY BUILD: the very small frame, thin and delicate
TATTOOS + PIERCINGS: none, except for the piercing of the ears
NOTABLE PHYSICAL TRAITS: her smile.

phobias and disorders

PHOBIAS: the fear of being alone.
MENTAL DISORDERS: text text
WHEN WAS THIS DIAGNOSED?: n/a

biography

HI PLEASE DON'T JUDGE I'M WORKING ON ALL OF THIS,

"you will never find"

with pale and delicate skin, her beauty held no bounds. her heart was what everyone saw, her smile was what everyone wanted.

"anyone as"

indiependent and private elizabeth schuyler. penned by sydney.

"trusting or as kind"

DRAFTS: thirty plus.
STARTERS: twenty plus.
INBOX: ten plus.

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